036; This is not your year.

Scattered shadows on a wall, you watch the long light fall
Some impressions stay and some will fade away
Tattered shoes outside your door, clothes all on the floor
Your life feels like the morning after all year long

Fucking hell. Haven't been sleeping well (I've gotten maybe eight odd hours in the past sixty), got a terrible headache (and it never goes away), and I've lost control of my body; can't stop shaking, can't hold food down, and I've had (more than?) four accidents today (which is more than average). The days are blurring together and I feel like hell.

(I guess this is payback for all those pink little pills.)

022; Kill me now...

I feel as though I'm dying. This morning I had a hard time getting out of bed but I did because there was still sunlight, then as soon as the sun set, I slept some more. My body is tired and aching and it rejects everything. I've eaten but I couldn't keep any of it; I've thrown up so much tonight that it feels like something's ruptured inside my brain. My head hurts so much I can barely think. I'm just gonna pass out and sleep as much as I can tomorrow.

I don't think I can take this much longer...

(At least I'm losing weight.)

019; Come on, skinny love, just last the year..

By Amy. ♥

I had a pretty bad nosebleed earlier, just out of the blue. I got blood all over my shirt and the sink. Crazy. I haven't had a nosebleed in ages..

It actually felt kind of good. I like nosebleeds.

I should probably take it as a warning sign though.. I get them quite often when I'm really sick, as in when I'm at the end of my rope. Which, soon, I will be.
Can winter end already?

008; I'm tangled up again...

I'm back to not being able to keep my food down; I thought I was past this. I just can't stomach it. I felt sick all night and then I finally threw up.. After a while, I came out and my brother told me I looked like Marion Silver.

Oh, and yes, my brothers came home today. It's nice to have some company, although Sindri is just staying for the night.

Now, I'm going to bed. I have a massive headache and my throat hurts.