Thursday, 20 January 2011
021; A coma would be nice.
I'm in a slight frenzy; I've gone through so many moods today. Mostly depressed, but also sudden surges of creativity, bouts of hopelessness, paranoia, extreme exhaustion, then the need to do something productive (and actually doing it--and I did, I framed and hung my Amélie poster), a zombie-like state where I showered, ate and watched TV, and finally anxiety. Now I can't calm down, even though I've taken my meds and they should be kicking in. All I want to do is curl up in the sofa with a tub of Ben & Jerry's and a good film. But, I'm just going to get ready for bed, take a shot of Bailey's, smoke a cigarette, read some Siken, and try to sleep.
I don't know why, but I felt the urgent need to blog.